I walk along the sidewalk, alone, hoping not to cross paths with anyone for fear of catching It. Alone is how I live now. Alone in my home. Alone in my mind. Even when blessed by family under the same roof, I feel alone. In some ways this isn’t new. This feeling of being alone, but somehow it is now more acute than before. I … Continue reading I think about you often….
The January sky is gray and the air cool, but not cold, with a threat of rain. You know the kind of day that makes you want to stay in your pj’s, curled up in bed, binge watching a series on your iPad. It’s the kind of day you have when life has kept you in fast forward for weeks since the 6:30am phone call … Continue reading …a tap on the shoulder
Today is her birthday. I don’t know exactly how old she would have been, a lady never tells. She had an ageless timeless spirit that burned so brightly, illuminating the lives of everyone she met, that her flame burned out long before any of us were prepared to let her go. I met her in what can only be viewed as a God ordained encounter. … Continue reading Remembering Debra…
This morning my fingers stumbled upon the Blog of a friend whom I’ve lost touch with. She’s one of those friends God gives us for a ‘season’. We feed and support each other’s spirits then life takes each of you on your own parallel, no longer intersecting, journey. However, your hearts know that you are but a moment away should one of you need to … Continue reading Connecting threads…..
She called this morning. She called because she cannot reply when she sees I’ve texted her. She lives too far away for me to pop in and remind her of my love so I text randomly to let her know she’s in my heart. Her voice is weak and her voice is strong. Her spirit is fighting and her spirit is tired. Her words are … Continue reading Precious….
I know that the tone of my last few posts has not been my normal, positive, self reflective, encouraging, faith based self. Last night I discovered why! I thought it was the life stresses and storm clouds building, that was bringing me down. I thought it was the disruption of my schedule that the end of school brings with it that was causing me distress. … Continue reading What a relief….
You are so brave… In the past few months, as I have walked this path we call life, I have heard people say those 4 words to me each time I openly share with them the story of my journey with alcohol. Until the last week or so, I never saw myself as brave. I was just me, doing the best I can to live … Continue reading You are so brave….
Tears welled up in my eyes as I hugged her goodbye. They spilled over and ran down my cheeks as I whispered my prayer for the journey ahead. Trying to smile, I wiped the drops away as we parted. In that moment I was embarrassed by my tears but driving away I realized that showing my emotions, rather than keeping them hidden away, is a … Continue reading Illusions…