She called this morning. She called because she cannot reply when she sees I’ve texted her. She lives too far away for me to pop in and remind her of my love so I text randomly to let her know she’s in my heart. Her voice is weak and her voice is strong. Her spirit is fighting and her spirit is tired. Her words are … Continue reading Precious….
I stumbled on a video yesterday, the morning of July 4th. While it felt like a random encounter, I know God placed it in my path to find, saying “Watch This”, on a day when I would be able to receive the messages it contained. The video was actually produced and aired about 9 months ago, but I was drinking then, and I didn’t see … Continue reading Watch this….
I know that the tone of my last few posts has not been my normal, positive, self reflective, encouraging, faith based self. Last night I discovered why! I thought it was the life stresses and storm clouds building, that was bringing me down. I thought it was the disruption of my schedule that the end of school brings with it that was causing me distress. … Continue reading What a relief….
Why does any given day matter more than any other? How can we imagine one day will feel different just because it is the day on which we were born? How can we expect people to act differently toward us on one particular day than they do on any other day? Why do we even make a big deal about birthdays? It’s just a day. So … Continue reading It’s just a day…
The crisis has passed. The clouds have lifted and I can see blue sky and feel a gentle breeze on my face as I walk in the sun. I weathered the storm life threw at me and I did not drown my fear in wine. I feel victorious, and exhausted. It took so much strength to deal with the daily stresses of the last few … Continue reading Lost and found…
I once started a post with the comment, silence is not golden. It was a time when I’d gone quiet with my posts because I was drinking again. Drinking after I’d publicly proclaimed here that I would not. Today I feel differently. Silence is Golden. Silence allows my mind and spirit to listen. Listen to God. Listen to my Heart. Listen to Family. Listen to … Continue reading Silence is golden….
A few years ago, I spent a long afternoon sorting through boxes of childhood and school memories. I came across a folder of papers I had written for various high school and college classes; my own personal “Best Of” file. Sitting on the cold basement floor, I opened the brittle manila folder, one with the 1/3 tabs across the side, and started reading. My eyes … Continue reading Looking back in time….