You don’t see it coming until it’s too, late. It creeps up on you. The days are ordinary, albeit full of the normal stresses of life. And then something happens, and the world feels quite different. Sitting on the beach, soaking up the sun and watching your children play at the water’s edge, it’s the tsunami wave sailing toward you from miles off, about to … Continue reading …the thief
In the days when every night ended with multiple glasses of wine, my daily responsibilities and routine were the switch that kept my drinking in check. The carpool and committee meetings, and the daily tasks I carried out as Family Manager, ensured that no wine was poured before 5pm. God knew that the time would come for me when those superficial controls would disappear. Children would go … Continue reading …5 o’clock
The sun rises Liquid golden light wakens the voices in my head They join me, guide me showing me the path Standing in their home I feel a gentle pull Let’s do the closet today I say opening a door One closet leads to another his closet to hers We thought it empty but she’s been there all along Hiding in the cupboard waiting behind … Continue reading VOICES v2
My father was a life long Rotarian who lived by the Rotary 4 Way Test. Growing up these four questions were right up there with the 10 Commandments in the way my father raised us and lived his own life personally and professionally. Is it the Truth? Is it Fair to All Concerned? Will it Build Goodwill and Better Friendships Will it be Beneficial to … Continue reading …. rigorous honesty
I love this analogy! Wish I could take credit for it but I cannot – When we stop drinking it’s like we are pregnant and we are giving birth to a new life! Our new life. I am going to hold fast to this image in the days, weeks and months ahead. I’m going to add to it the idea of self-care that I read somewhere else. Just … Continue reading …. 9 months
Do you ever think, what if? Do you ever imagine the how your life might be different? What if had you turned right instead of left. What if you had talked to that handsome guy a little longer at the Christmas party when you were younger? What if you had truly stopped drinking 984 days ago? What if? If we are wise, and healthy, we … Continue reading …what if?
The seed is the word of God. Luke 5:11 NIV Scrolling through my Saturday morning Facebook feed, an illustrated post by Laura Kelly Fanucci at Mothering Spirit appeared with this verse. I read it and scrolled on. Moments later I felt a pull to go back and read it again. The seed is the word of GOD. …and again. The seed is the WORD … Continue reading …seeds and soil
When your bottom is not deep, it is easy to see over the edge where people gather in joyful celebration. When your bottom is not deep, it is easy to see the horizon where the sun glistens on a cool and inviting river of wine. When your bottom is not deep, it is easy to hear the voices in the breeze telling you … Continue reading …the bottom
She called this morning. She called because she cannot reply when she sees I’ve texted her. She lives too far away for me to pop in and remind her of my love so I text randomly to let her know she’s in my heart. Her voice is weak and her voice is strong. Her spirit is fighting and her spirit is tired. Her words are … Continue reading Precious….
I stumbled on a video yesterday, the morning of July 4th. While it felt like a random encounter, I know God placed it in my path to find, saying “Watch This”, on a day when I would be able to receive the messages it contained. The video was actually produced and aired about 9 months ago, but I was drinking then, and I didn’t see … Continue reading Watch this….