I walk along the sidewalk, alone, hoping not to cross paths with anyone for fear of catching It. Alone is how I live now. Alone in my home. Alone in my mind. Even when blessed by family under the same roof, I feel alone. In some ways this isn’t new. This feeling of being alone, but somehow it is now more acute than before. I … Continue reading I think about you often….
Sitting in my family room the other morning, house quiet as my family slept in, I looked around me. The kitchen was still cluttered with dishes that did not make it into the already full dishwasher, a basket next to me overflowed with balls of yarn I wanted to knit, the coffee table in front of me a Jenga tower of magazines ready to topple. … Continue reading …filling the void
Not sure how to write this. I’ve never been good at asking for help from others. But here goes – Last night I received a text from my sister telling me how much she enjoyed my post from yesterday titled, …irrational rhythm. She asked if I’d been getting lots of LIKEs and Comments. My answer? Nope and Nope. Bloggers write for many reasons but one … Continue reading …a little help
Our mother was the story keeper of the family. If you ever wanted to know who did what, or who married whom, or where someone lived or went to college, Mom knew. And it wasn’t just her own family tree that she tended, she knew the stories in my father’s family, too. The love stories, the life stories, she knew them all. I mourned so … Continue reading …her voice
Do you ever think, what if? Do you ever imagine the how your life might be different? What if had you turned right instead of left. What if you had talked to that handsome guy a little longer at the Christmas party when you were younger? What if you had truly stopped drinking 984 days ago? What if? If we are wise, and healthy, we … Continue reading …what if?
Resolutions. Beginnings. Endings. There are so many well known cliches surrounding the turning of the calendar to begin a New Year. What is so special and different about January 1? We are given the gift of a new beginning with every sunrise. We are given the gift of turning the page on a difficult chapter in our life with every sunset. If you have read … Continue reading Beginnings….
This morning my fingers stumbled upon the Blog of a friend whom I’ve lost touch with. She’s one of those friends God gives us for a ‘season’. We feed and support each other’s spirits then life takes each of you on your own parallel, no longer intersecting, journey. However, your hearts know that you are but a moment away should one of you need to … Continue reading Connecting threads…..
The crisis has passed. The clouds have lifted and I can see blue sky and feel a gentle breeze on my face as I walk in the sun. I weathered the storm life threw at me and I did not drown my fear in wine. I feel victorious, and exhausted. It took so much strength to deal with the daily stresses of the last few … Continue reading Lost and found…
I once started a post with the comment, silence is not golden. It was a time when I’d gone quiet with my posts because I was drinking again. Drinking after I’d publicly proclaimed here that I would not. Today I feel differently. Silence is Golden. Silence allows my mind and spirit to listen. Listen to God. Listen to my Heart. Listen to Family. Listen to … Continue reading Silence is golden….
A few years ago, I spent a long afternoon sorting through boxes of childhood and school memories. I came across a folder of papers I had written for various high school and college classes; my own personal “Best Of” file. Sitting on the cold basement floor, I opened the brittle manila folder, one with the 1/3 tabs across the side, and started reading. My eyes … Continue reading Looking back in time….